I believe that everything that is happening to me I deserve. I’m nothing but pathetic. I’m really not worth anything. I don’t deserve to be happy , I don’t deserve anything. I try so dam hard and I keep starting from where I was at the beginning. I swear I try .. I try every dam day. I don’t want to wake up, I don’t want to do anything. I just want a hole to appear in the floor so I can fall and keep falling. Until I’m alone, where nobody can hear me, nobody can be next to me. I don’t know what I want anymore. There are days where I don’t want to be here and there’s days where I want to disappear. Everything happens for a reason, right? That’s why I think I deserve all of this.

I believe that everything that is happening to me I deserve. I’m nothing but pathetic. I’m really not worth anything. I don’t deserve to be happy , I don’t deserve anything. I try so dam hard and I keep starting from where I was at the beginning. I swear I try .. I try every dam day. I don’t want to wake up, I don’t want to do anything. I just want a hole to appear in the floor so I can fall and keep falling. Until I’m alone, where nobody can hear me, nobody can be next to me. I don’t know what I want anymore. There are days where I don’t want to be here and there’s days where I want to disappear. Everything happens for a reason, right? That’s why I think I deserve all of this.